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braces are off!
Friday, March 9, 2012
hello! it has yet been so long since i've updated! so let me recap what i've done till now! so last year, basically it has been a really hectic year because of O levels! after mugging and really working hard, i am really proud to say that i've achieved 11 points(: it was what i prayed for and i believed that God really helped me through all the night studies.. saturday morning sessions with Mr Latiff and consultations with many other teachers! shocker man, i got A1 for both my literature and combined humanities! CRAZY OR WHAT? hahaha. insane!! literature, my arch enemy became my friend in the very end after struggling for 2 years! all thanks to miss ong for really drilling us i guess hehehe. i can still remember the day when i collected the results. nervewrecking to say the least, taking the results from miss yeo was terrifying and i could not bear to see the results. after taking a peek at the cover page, i finally mustered the courage to just open and count the points. E Math, A Math and Chemistry was definitely disappointing. those were the subjects i thought i would get an A for.. but all got a B3. nvm! now at least i am in meridian(: i still recall miss chong talking to all of our parents during meet-the-parents session for prelim results. my parents were still like nagging at me for my lousy results, especially my dad! but now, at least i proved all of them wrong! and i really worked hard for it! now to go a bit futher back from results, it was the december tour with my beloved dmnchoir <3 haha, i really enjoyed that tour and i will never ever forget this wonderful experience! i really enjoyed EVERY single practice and it was really rare because i really hated choir prac in sec 1 and 2 and i really didn't want to go for it at all. but now, it really shows how much i have changed and grown. this tour made me realise how much i really like choral singing and my passion will never die! especially under mr toh. it was definitely great to be able to compete in 2 categories for the first time! children's category - 99 points! woohoo! and chamber - 95.5! 1st and 2nd place respectively. something really commendable for a young choir! loved everything abt it!! well now, as i have mentioned earlier, i have gotten into meridian jc.. and life is definitely getting tougher for me now. so much tutorials.. and self-learning involved now. i truly understand the meaning of sheltered and not sheltered? even though meridian is still considered quite sheltered as compared to other jcs, it is still a whole different experience from dunman to meridian. it's like in dunman, you know, all the teachers there are like SUPER friendly and nice to talk to.. but now it is like lesser time for you to really understand everything and it is a bit harder to approach these teachers and ask them questions.. also, i feel a bit lousy about myself. well, i scored 11 points which means that after minusing 2 points from cca, i like JUST NICE got into meridian. so that means that i am the lousiest in the class cos there are just so many other people who scored lower points than me. doesn't this show that they have a better brain than me and that they are able to understand things so much better than me? this makes me a bit discouraged.. but i am still working on it. my chemistry now.. sigh. one of the lowest in class and it definitely brings my confidence down. for all subjects i am failing.. ARGH. definitely frustrating! well, i heard that georgina scored straight As for A Level! totally amazed and in awe on how she is able to cope with jc work so well. i mean, her academics is like PERFECT. all As in Os and now in As as well. i wish her all the best in uni! i am sure she can do it! (: so anyway back to jc, my first week in jc was HORRIBLE. environment changed, i was totally not used to it. cried many times and i guess it was an experience that God wanted me to go through. to trust in Him more. i guess in dunman, i was always in my comfort zone with all my good friends around me and i had people to share my woes with. but now, it is a totally new environment, no friends i know and worst of all, a TK gang in my class. now, it is definitely getting better and i am getting to know the people better. it was just that the first week.. traumatic experience and one i would not forget. that week of struggles really made me more reliant on God instead of my own strength. the next obstacle on my mind.. it is the rally for bizclub exco position. i have NO idea how i am going to rally. it is SO NOT me and i dunno how i am gonna face so many people and present! argh, i am just gonna have to trust God and let Him lead me. if that is what God wants me to go through, i guess i would have to. i mean, it makes me a better person for sure. somehow, what other people thinks about this club concerns me. people think that bizclub is slack.. but it is true to some extent. but their impression on this club is just that we are lousy and we can't do anything which makes me a little sad. it is like i am in a useless club? :( but nevertheless, i think i will still do my best and whether i get into exco or not, i will still thank God for the experience! so going back to the title, yes i took off my braces on 9 March 2012 on 5:15 PM. it DEFINITELY feels really weird now that i don't have my braces and i really really miss it. seeing the before photos really made me reflect on how i was in sec 2. seeing that happy girl staring back at me with that teeth.. made me sad. how could i be so happy then? well, i think i have really grown a lot from that girl i used to be. of course now i have straighter teeth.. but i feel that i gained more confidence as an individual and more leadership skills i believe. i miss my braces! it feels so weird not to have my tongue rubbing against the metal.. sigh. things do change and it is our duty to accept and adapt to it. but you know.. it is like the braces have been part of my life. the part where i went through so much pain. O Levels.. preparation for it. all the night studies and the countless number of papers that i had to do! i seem to remember complaining that i had to put rubber bands.. and today 9 March marks the last day i wore rubber bands. all the pain from the tightening every month.. and complains.. so when the dentist took the braces off, it was as if he was taking part of my life away from me as well. the braces were like an indication on how much i went through and all the hard work i have put in. i know things can't remain status quo and i would eventually get my straight teeth! so now.. it marks a new chapter in my life in jc especially. it would have to be a great one(: reflecting on the past really makes me think of everything that happened last year. all the teachers who have helped me so much.. i am truly so grateful to them for EVERYTHING that they have done for me! let me recall the teachers from 4C! 1. Miss Yeo - chem teacher! the most amazing teacher that i know. she is someone whom i will never forget as well! she always care for us.. talking to us and making sure that we are coping well. not only that, for me, she will always let me read motivational verses or she will comfort me with the word of God. she is an awesome teacher, giving us so much. she sacrificed so much for us and all her efforts are really appreciated by 4C :) a teacher with so much sincerity and genuinity. she is an angel sent by God. love you!! 2. Miss Kang - my english teacher! such a funny and a teacher who is so easy to get along with! i love her telling all her stories about her life and the interesting facts that happens along the way. she is very open-minded to things and she is a teacher who really touched my life(: she also put in a lot of effort into 4C.. marking all of our compositions and ensuring that we can give the best that we can in O Levels. i wished i could make her proud by giving her a distinction, but i couldn't! such a pity, but i really appreciate everything that she has done for us for sure(: 3. Mrs Lim - math teacher! she.. is a really caring teacher. she really makes sure that we understand the topic well. she gives us a lot of practices and although she doesn't really show her care for us as openly as miss yeo or miss kang does, she really shows it through marking of our work. she really goes all out for us.. staying back late for consultations! i remember always looking for her.. and talking to her(: such an awesome teacher! 4. Mr Latiff - physics teacher! mr latiff is SO funny and he is SO caring. one of the most caring teachers that i've known! he is such a sweetie and always gives us motivational speeches before class starts.. telling us that we really have to work hard. love him! he is ever so patient in explaining.. i still remember night studies where we have to do papers.. and everytime i always have a lot of questions to ask him. he will never turn me down but patiently explain the solutions to the questions! he is an extremely dedicated teacher who cracks jokes with us.. a kind teacher that shows his sincerity from within. a teacher i will never forget(: 5. Miss Ong - literature teacher! she is a teacher that i hated for 2 years ever since literature started. well.. i feel bad for saying all the bad things about her. she didn't want to be the way she was but it was for our own good(: she is also a really nice and kind teacher who wanted us to learn how to think and derive the answer on our own. even though i suck at lit, she never gave up on me. hopefully the A1 i achieved for her was good enough! hehe. these teachers.. i will truly miss them so much. they are angels.. and i will never forget whatever they have done for me :) i love them!! well.. the chapter of my secondary school ended and a new chapter with mjc begins! not sure how it will be crafted but i guess i will have to wait and see(: my class is so funny and our fav teacher is definitely mr lau hahaha. hopefully things will get better from here(: now having one week hol before common test begins :( please God please help me to concentrate and study hard for it! i definitely do not want to be the last few again.. but God i really want to thank you for all the teachers who have impacted my life greatly. i pray that God you will continue to work in my life and craft me into the person You want me to be(: Thank you God! 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