Feeling like I've been such a crappy friend in the past year or two to all my friends. I've noticed one recurring behavioural trait - I step into your life, I feel that I'm intruding into your space and I back out. It's just this apologetic nature in me.. that I always feel that I need to give people their space and privacy. I guess this could also translate into me not caring, yknow? And I'm reaching my breaking point about how I always feel so apologetic for everything, even when it's not my fault. Like how I'm sorry when I feel that I'm taking up your time to reply me, blah blah. Sounds ridiculous, I know. I see my friends and they have their close buds that hangout 24/7 and - I want to have this kind of friendship too. Am I the limiting factor? Sigh, been beating myself down over this. Being busy is no excuse I know.

ok that's all for friendship.

I'M INTO MY LAST SEM OF MY LAST YEAR. 3.5 years into this school and graduation is within sight for sure. I'm so excited but not for bus489 though - dreading this module and my schedule is packed because of the tight deadlines from this module. But I know I'll get through this :) 

ok going back to writing my report for bus489 then heading off to bed.